terrorized
In a letter to his wife, a Civil War soldier described war as 90 percent boredom and 10 percent sheer terror.
Making movies seems to follow that same mix; a lot of ‘hurry up and wait’, interspersed with brief stretches of ulcer-inducing frenetic action.
I’m starting to realize, though, that I greatly prefer the sheer terror part. So, really, if starting a distribution company while juggling a slew of films at different stages all at once pushes the sheer terror part to, say, 40 percent, though I should probably consequently be spending my days lying curled in the fetal position in the corner, sobbing softly from the stress of it all, instead, perversely enough, I’m thrilled.